Bipolar me :(:

I am Bipolar

Yes, that's right... I am! 

Every bipolar case is different. In most cases it's caused/starts from Depression, Chemical imbalance, Post traumatic stress disorder etc

In my case its all three of the above.

Explaining my symptoms:

When I'm UP;

 I'm erratically happy... I move around faster, feel untouchable, spend lots of money, have a lot of sudden energy, over analyse, act inconsistent and also do not sleep well.

When I'm DOWN;

I find it hard to leave my bed, I have extremely low self esteem,  feel tired and/or run down, cry uncontrollably and randomly, very sensitive, Irritable, don't answer my phone, and find it hard to show any effort or interest. Sometimes I also get a Psychotic episode (when extremely tense times come)

My ups only last a few days to maybe a week and a half, but my downs last longer! Its difficult for me to find a stable in-between. Also with that I have OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder)... So If I'm feeling high and happy my entire house is in order, clean and organized. If the house is unclean my moods may lower and I will reach the Down moments. An unclean/un-orderly house makes it hard for me to lift myself up. 

Here are some great website links that explain so much more + the first one has a online test if you think you may have bipolar...


http://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/public/bipolardisorder/self-test.cfm

http://www.sane.org/information/factsheets-podcasts/199-bipolar-disorder